reading.

Pregnancy has " grounded" me physically n tat gives me lotsa time to read.
i have been reading, reading, reading these months.

Indeed, after all that has happened, and many of us are so tempted or prone to making remarks, i realise that i need to guide my heart and mind in Christ Jesus jealously. And i need to read, read n read that God's word be deeply etched in my heart that i may not sin against Him or say anything that is not glorifying to Him. The tongue is dangerous and it requires lotsa discipline to tame it.

I have been reading MAtthew these days. In the past, i had read it from a story kind of perspective, like what Jesus did, wat happened, the events that occured, whois who, more concerned about the storyline n miracles Jesus performed.

But somehow, tis time round, the Lord taught me to read it from another perspective. Not so much concentrating on the events or great miracles that happened , but rather on the heart of Christ as he does all these miracles, reaches out to his people. It is refreshing to know the heart of Christ as he talks, answers, communicates to different groups of people, be it fishermen, Pharisees, tax collectors, crowd etc.. There are times he spoke with great authority, rebuke, conviction. Yet, there are times too when he spoke with gentleness, compassion and mercy. How God answers the difficult questions posed to him by different people out to harm or kill him. How God answers His disciples. How God answers Satan. How God answers the crowd.

Indeed, wat is the heart of Christ? As he deals with so many groups of people of different intentions, social status, educational or intelluctual levels,age group etc?

The Lord softens my hard heart while i read on this book. And it has truly been refreshing. i was wondering if i was there with Christ as He travelled, how would i have reacted to all these people, their doubts, their fears, their evil schemes, their needs? How would i have answered? With bitterness? With compassion? With conviction? With authority? with rebuke? I reallie dunno. How has Christ answered? What is his Heart for them?

As we go through a difficult time, i pray that we may handle all matters with a heart of Christ, as how Christ would have handled it. May we guide our hearts n minds in Christ during this time!

oK. time for my noon nap! tataz...:0